#Ace Of Cups

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Ace of Cups and The Star

This is probably a good day for a nice cup of tea and a relaxing bath.

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Reylo Tarot Series - Ace of Cups

Previous tarot cards:

Major Arcana:

VI-The Lovers

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Minor Arcana:

Suit of Wands:

Ace of Wands | Two of Wands | Three of Wands | Four of Wands | Five of Wands | Six of Wands | Seven of Wands | Eight of Wands | Nine of Wands | Ten of Wands | Page of Wands | Knight of Wands | Queen of Wands | King of Wands

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[paperwick]

Larksharius and Rimerock Ace of Cups

Lark awaits for Ri's soul to return so they can officially embark on their eternal romance.

Tarot commission for @arrow90-art of their two lovely characters.

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Ace of Cups. Art by Anna Surgan, from the Golden Enigma Tarot.

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🩵Ace Of Cups Part 1🩷

🫧Pisces placements can make you feel like they are something they are not. Their changes are always unusual or sudden. Let's say michael jackson - pisces asc - his skin color change was all of a sudden and there were many rumors - what was supposed to be the reason for the skin change, but no one knew exactly what it was in reality. His death was also unexpected and strange.

🧜🏽‍♀️Mars in 12th house-when you are alone u are in your best energy. Because then you only have your own energy and you can relax. In fact, the energy of others can quickly start to bother you. When u are with people u can have low energy. You have many hidden talents that people don't know about.

🔥Mars in fire sign- the most random people i know like they will text u in the middle of the night and ask you if you have time to hang out. You can always see that they have the craziest ideas that they remember spontaneously.

🌳Gemini moon can be way more moody than cancer moon. Gemini moon many times show their emotions outwards - as if their face says how they feel. They also need mental stimulation and to talk about how they feel.

🧚🏼‍♀️The reason why I love cancer moon is because they are needy and they will need you always. They will be there for u. And you will be their favorite person. I can say without a doubt that this is one of those moons that will always put you first and always choose you. They do a lot for you and always notice how you feel. No moon can compare to this and you can fight me over this.

❤️‍🔥Sagittarius are independent and know how to do things on their own and travel on their own and search for their meaning in life, but inside they want to do all this with a person, they just don't talk about it out loud. Leo placements act very proud, self-confident, untouchable, strong, but in reality they hide sadness inside. They always want to be strong and show their sunny side, but they want someone to be that strong for them too.

🐚Pisces placements are such a giving sign & I love it. This can be seen a lot with machine gun kelly how much he does for his fans and how honest he is with them. I really like his genuine energy. They give a lot to people and want people to feel their energy as well.

☀️Aries rising - they really know how to focus on themselves, you can see the energy they carry and how they know how to do things themselves. They know how to be alone (in a way that they don't need other people). They can live completely on their own, and they're fine with that. They also give a lot of space to the person they are with.

🧁Venus shows how you act in a relationship. So if you have fire venus you will always want passion and action in a relationship. You will love the romantic drama many times. If you have water venus you will always want depth, connection and intensity. If you have air venus you will want communication, interest and something to dream about. If you have earth venus you will always want stability and practicality.

🩷Venus in 12th house - these people often idealized love or the person they like. They dream a lot about this person and think about what a relationship with this person would be like. Many times I also notice that they like love poems, pictures or spiritual things or things that are cute. For them, love is always cute & soul connection. They want someone with whom they can share their soul with.

🪴Mercury in 12th house- many times I notice that they have problems with communication or expression (in the sense that they say things that are not understandable or say something in such a way that you don't know what they meant). I was talking to a guy and he seemed totally confused over the messages, but then in person it was completely different. It's like he's speaking his mind, I don't know how to describe it.

🩵Mercury in 8th house synastry - can sometimes act like the person is reading your mind and your energy. It's like telling you what you think, and it can be really scary sometimes haha. As if they know what you want. Also u can read person’s energy just from looking at their eyes.

💘When someone has virgo & leo placements - they will tell u they love u in a anxious way but they still be dominant about it and it so fucking cute. Leos won't admit their feelings if they don't really love you.

🌙Taurus moon uses the word “boring”a lot in pictures. And many times they post music on story. But many times I notice that they will either publish a lot or not at all. They like privacy and are often more introverted. I also often notice that they like to spend time in the park or meet someone and go for a walk or something similar.

-Rebekah🫧🩵

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Ace of Cups

[a-d-nox]

tarot cards and their key phrases: cups

this is just a beginners guide to the cups suit - i won't go into imagery, color use, etc. these are key phrases that come to mind when i think of the cards - NOT how they should be directly applied. they needs to be thought about situationally and the cards / when they are in combos they can change or alter their meanings of any reading.

ace of cups (1)

astrological equivalent: cancer jupiter

upright: love offering, self-love, new relationship, love, peace, happiness, emotional fulfillment, renewed enthusiasm, vow renewal, emotional outpour, and pregnancy

reversed: feeling empty, depleted energy, needing self-care, and feeling disappointed

two of cups (2)

astrological equivalent: cancer venus

upright: shared feelings, mutual attraction, deep feelings, nurturing, equal give-and-take, new relationship, love, emotional fulfillment, new partnership, and generosity

reversed: imbalanced relationship, new/pending breakup, pain, difficulty, needing to say "no", and needing to create space

three of cups (3)

astrological equivalent: pisces mercury

upright: fun, playful, needing to spend time with friends/family, stress relief, a feeling of expansiveness, joyousness, feeling uplifted, collaboration, and teamwork

reversed: overindulgence, partying too much, socializing too much feeling drained, tension amongst friends, gossiping, boundary issues, and affairs

four of cups (4)

astrological equivalent: scorpio mercury

upright: needing to shift perspectives, needing to find joy, pessimism, stagnant feelings/thoughts, apathy, and disenchantment

reversed: stuck thinking about the past, dissatisfaction, overthinking old memories, and waiting for change instead of changing

five of cups (5)

astrological equivalent: scorpio moon

upright: needing to acknowledge sadness/disappointment, holding back emotions, needing to purge emotions, needing to see stars among the darkness, overwhelmed by emotions, mourning, isolation, sadness, and depression

reversed: hope, turning the corner, seeing a silver lining, accepting the truth, healing, and growth

six of cups (6)

astrological equivalent: cancer moon

upright: safe, carefree, playful, childlike, inner child, reconnecting with old people, tapping in to joy, opening up to the past, and working with/around children

reversed: unhealthy attachment to nostalgia, focused on the past, and wishing things were how they were

seven of cups (7)

astrological equivalent: pisces sun

upright: options, dreams not yet materialized, formless desires, energetic potential, looking within, too many choices, needing clarity/focus, and big ideas

reversed: looks can be deceiving, too good to be true, extreme emotions, intense excitement, underlying truth, and proceed with caution

eight of cups (8)

astrological equivalent: scorpio sun

upright: don't settle, something is missing, following instincts, meaningful existence, inner calling, walking away from what no longer serves you, and ending the pattern

reversed: overstaying in a relationship/job/situation, wants over necessity, fear of change, and needing to embrace the unknown

nine of cups (9)

astrological equivalent: pisces jupiter

upright: enjoying the hard work / achievements, overflowing abundance, savoring the moment, good fortune, and happiness

reversed: arrogance, needing lots of validation, over indulging, needing moderation, and needing to practice gratitude/generosity

ten of cups (10)

astrological equivalent: cancer sun

upright: emotional fulfillment, new stage of life, manifesting, happiness, family dynamic, serenity, satisfaction, gratitude, mutual love/respect, and happiness

reversed: delay, obstacle, lack of security, disconnection between you and a partner, be patient, and needing to listen to your heart

page of cups

astrological equivalent: earth & water

upright: knowing one's self, free expression, emotional intelligence, active expression of feelings, listen to messages from all different sources, and listening to intuition

reversed: feeling incapable of self-expression, taking life too seriously, not making time for joy/play/awareness, needing empathy/sympathy, carelessness, immaturity, and taking things too seriously

knight of cups

astrological equivalent: water & air

upright: motivations behind behavior, emotional experiences, idealizing someone/something, slowing down, and needing to see things clearer

reversed: disappointment in a relationship, high hopes, unmet expectations, fizzled out connection, object of desire is different than expected, relying too heavily on desire, desiring perfection, adjusting expectations, and forgiving the shortcomings of others

queen of cups

astrological equivalent: water & water

upright: feminine love, nurturing, protective, intense emotions, others influencing your emotions, and needing to nurture yourself

reversed: jealousy, envy, suspicions, feeling cautious, being open about feelings without fearing rejection/judgment, and being proven untrustworthy

king of cups

astrological equivalent: water & fire

upright: masculine taking initiative, compassion, quality of empathy, emotional intelligence, maintaining boundaries, and remaining mindful

reversed: shaky boundaries, emotional instability, might need to dig deeper, doubting your own abilities, looking to others for guidance, confusing communication, hurt feelings, feeling rejected by other, and trying to not take things personally

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tarot observations

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- the fool/the magician: you are fully prepared for the journey you are stepping into.

- crossed swords imagery indicates a decisive decision needing to take place.

- knight of cups especially after a page, indicates somebody coming through that might start lovebombing you and telling you what you want to hear, anxious attachment, unstable concept of emotions.

- the devil may indicate somebody coming through with a sex or a stimulant addiction (caffeine, nicotine, hard stimulants), it may also indicate somebody you suspect has psychopathic tendencies.

- 5 of cups when asking “who?” may point to somebody you feel has abandoned you, or someone that ghosted you which you feel tense about.

- drawing the 7 of swords for “who?” indicates a very stubborn person, someone that would rather lie/extensively add on to the truth rather than own up to fucking up. someone that might make you nauseous with their energy.

- 9 of wands shows a person protecting everything they’ve gathered, ready to debate if they can manage to take on more (->10 of wands).

- aces/knights of swords/wands might indicate someone coming though to apologise to you

- the queen of cups for guidance teaches self love and accessing your intuition though your emotions

- ace of cups reversed indicates an emotional rejection occurring, forced self-love, the needing to pour your emotions inwards.

- 7 of wands may indicate walking on eggshells around the subject.

- pulling the magician about another person indicates this person moulds their personality to whoever they’re around.

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Aces of the Lord of the Rings: the potential, the seed, the beginning of the beginning

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The ace and two where easy choices/designs.

[unhelpfultarot]

Nine of Swords reversed and Ace of Cups

You're awake and things aren't quite as bad as you thought. Have some water.

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charlotte's art history tarot – ace of cups

Art: Vase and Fruit – unknown artist

interpret this card

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ᴀᴄᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴄᴜᴘꜱ

ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇɴᴛ ⬎

ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ/ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ꜰᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ꜰɪɴᴀɴᴄᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ꜱᴇx

⟶ ᴀᴄᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴄᴜᴘꜱ ᴜᴘʀɪɢʜᴛ

ʚїɞ ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ⟶ the ace of cups is about a flow of emotion and intuition. being spiritual and having an abundance of love automatically, the ace of cups speaks about emotional fulfillment and happiness. can be about new relationships, romance, creativity, socialising, celebration and pregnancy. the card speaks of the information of living your life to the fullest, having a new beginning and taking a step out of your hermit area.

ʚїɞ ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ the ace of cups in romance can be about a potential in a relationship, gaining deep intimacy with someone and being compassionate with someone. the relationship between you and the other party could be identified as very meaningful.

ʚїɞ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ/ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ⟶ the ace of cups here entails that you would have good connections with other people, could insinuate of a new job and good grades, but the answer is still low. could also imply that you could go for new challenges so you can level up on the circumstance you're in. can speak of a promotion.

ʚїɞ ꜰᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ⟶ on a reading about the future, when ace of cups is pulled out, it speaks of happiness, and feeling brand new, it could imply of making new connections, especially friends. the ace of cups upright here could insinuate that your future involves with someone around you being pregnant, or you could be pregnant. it could also mean you're invited to a party/celebration event.

ʚїɞ ꜰɪɴᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ when the ace of cups is in a finance reading, it could imply of gaining money due to creative outlets, might gain support when it comes to your money, or you could find yourself supporting someone else. it could entail of good financial news, if you are wondering if you're going to get money soon, ace of cups mean yes.

ʚїɞ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ based on romance or platonic; this card could insinuate that someone could feel happy with you, you could make them feel worthy, they would want to be around you a lot. this card could imply that someone could crush on you and if not romantic, you could be one of their dearest people. card could speak about wanting to stat something new with you.

ʚїɞ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ having the ace of cups shows that someone would treat you with much compassion, they would want to make you feel included, if a romantic relationship, it'll be clear that the said person would treat you with amour. they would want to explore with you---platonic or romantic. they will want to make sure you know that they're thrilled with you, they will be understanding with you as well, and empathetic.

ʚїɞ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ someone would perceive you to be someone who is emotional, empathetic and intuitive. they would find you to be someone who knows how to read the room and could help others feel inspired. they would think of you as potential if it is a romantic situation. someone could find you to be "new", a breath fresh of air, someone who is youthful, and as someone who likes to communicate with other people. they could find you to be spiritual as well.

ʚїɞ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ⟶ if this card is taken out, it means the person could be someone who feels a lot, someone who has a lot of knowledge, they could be someone who could get attached to other people, and other people could find their presence healing. they can be someone who is heavily romantic and loves deeply, and as someone who can be very joyful and happy.

ʚїɞ ꜱᴇx ⟶ could cum very quickly, could have a lot of cum, could be someone who squirts, someone might like to have spiritual sex, could be a very fertile person. could be into breeding, could actually be experienced in sex but could be into learning new things. could cry during sex, or could whimper a lot. likely likes to moan and hear their significant person be vocal.

⟶ ᴀᴄᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴄᴜᴘꜱ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴇᴅ

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ⟶ in reverse, the ace of cups is about underlying feelings, being anti-social and cold to yourself and other people around you. issues with the body, bad news, cancelled events, the card reverse could also speak of loneliness and feeling not cared for the people around them.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ in reverse, the ace of cups can speak of rejection, could speak of breaking up with someone and feeling like your love isnt being reciprocated, or the other person could feel like you dont try and put the same energy as them. could be that someone could feel smothered, and might fall out of love with them, but sometimes it could mean too much obsession, but other cards will have to be pulled out for the reader to be sure.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ/ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ⟶ this card could mean that you could feel unmotivated to carry on, might want to drop out. could not like what you produce, could also mean you find the people in the space to be distant and mean. might feel like you cant be helped, or could feel like a failure.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ꜰᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ⟶ could feel unhappy in the future, could mean that you could be blocked about what you're supposed to do in your path. could also insinuate that if you were planning to do something with people it could go cancelled, or just not the way you would want it to go. could insinuate that there would be a lot of painful being felt.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ꜰɪɴᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ this card could mean potential of being scammed, not being able to earn as much as money you want from your work or from other people. might be very upset and frustrated about your financial situation, is an indicator of not investing in something you think of.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ for feelings about you, the ace of cups in reverse entails that someone could feel like you're over-whelming, or they could have troubles experiencing their feelings for you, this could indicate that this person could feel sad about you, some bad history might've been shared between the both of you and the other party does not like it. it could also imply of being worried.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ when it comes to how well someone would treat you, this isnt really the best card to get unfortunately. it could feel one-sided when you're with them, and if they were in a previous relationship you are likely going to be the person to fill the hole that has been left, so you would most likely feel like a prop, it could also be the same if someone has lost a friend and they're trying to find the next thing. this person wouldnt try their best to keep their connection with you.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ with the card reversed, someone would perceive you to be someone who is detached or as someone who gets emotionally clingy, they would think of you to be someone who looks sad all the time, or as someone who is very depressing. could be thought as someone who keeps their cards close to their chest and as someone who is barely impressed. could think of you as uptight and as someone who is snobby.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ⟶ as a person, the ace of cups in reverse means that the person is someone who goes through a lot of ups and downs, could be thought as someone who is unstable. could be thought as awkward and as someone who doesnt know how to process or express emotions. could be considered as someone who is protective over themselves, and likes to be a loner.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ꜱᴇx ⟶ unwanted pregnancies, not being able to orgasm, if you're with a partner, you might be greedy with sex, or they could be. might only do it to please them, other person might climax easily and you wont be able to, disappointing sex.

ʚїɞ ɴᴇxᴛ ⟶ ᴛᴡᴏ ᴏꜰ ᴄᴜᴘꜱ

ɢᴏᴛʜɪᴄᴀᴅᴀ'ꜱ ᴍᴀꜱᴛᴇʀʟɪꜱᴛ

[numinously-yours]

Pick a crystal: Messages from your inner child

I've been doing a lot of my own inner child work lately and really felt called to channel all of (well, as many of) yours as I could. This reading is looking at:

What did you need as a child?

How is your inner child now?

What do they want you to work on next?

I also gauged the time of your childhood that I think these feels really became a part of you - but the ranges are large and don't necessarily mean it's not for you!

Choose a crystal and see below the cut for your reading

Pile one, stability is the world I would use to describe what you needed as a kid. It feels like every time you ALMOST felt settled, your caretaker would get too scared to commit and you were off to the next place. You never got the chance to really make connection. Yeah, you've always had friends but you never had that connection that really showed you what friendship was. I'm here to tell you that all of the people you were worried about liking you are thankful you were a part of their lives, no matter the length of time.

I REALLY hope my intuition is correct about how your inner child is feeling right now. It is beautiful energy. It's either a relatively recent happening or it's happening very soon, but your sense of emotional fulfillment is so strong. Since this time in your childhood, you have finally started to understand what unconditional love feels like. I want to cry, pile 1! There is a huge sense of relief coming over me. You're realizing that it doesn't matter how long you've been somewhere, as long as you are your authentic self and you allow others to be their authentic selves, that is all you need space for.

What your inner child wants you to work on next is believing that others know this too! In your heart of heart, you know it's true. But you wonder if you're being an imposter of your own self. Are you making up that this is the truth?! Nope. This is only your ego talking. It's trying to protect you, but you don't need it this time around. Take your time learning this, remembering this, and giving yourself grace when you forget it. It will come back easier each and every time.

Pile two, I don't think you were allowed to actually be a child when you were a kid. It's not that you weren't able to have fun, but I think your parental unit guilt tripped you a lot and sometimes made you the parent. You may have heard phrases like "You don't appreciate what I do for you", "I'm a terrible mother/father/etc", "You'll never be able to make it on your own." It can be any parental figure, but I am feeling strong feminine energy. This person wasn't like this ALL the time,. In fact, you have a lot of fun memories from your childhood. You don't think your childhood was bad by any means, but you wish it didn't still affect you like it does.

I absolutely believe that you've grown a lot. I think this person still does this and, while it doesn't always get to you, every once and awhile you feel really let down. You may be having some trouble trusting your instincts, lately. You're wondering if you're saying "yes" to the people you love because you WANT to or if it's because you're going back to your old ways? Your inner child wants you to know that you're allowed to trust your gut. You will know when you're doing something for yourself versus for other people.

What your inner child may need now is the chance to grow on their own, without the influence of this person. It might be time to take a brief separation from this person if possible. It will be difficult, and you may need to grieve, but I think the grief is really toward letting your childhood hopes go versus feeling badly about hurting this person. I'm sorry you have to worry about this step, but it's so going to be worth it.

As a child, pile three, I think you have to leave someone you love and, even if you didn't have control over the situation, ou still feel guilty. For some of you, you feel like an outcome would be different if you never left. For others, you haven't had much contact with this person since leaving and you feel like it's something you did that didn't make you "worthy" of being reached out to.

Right now, your inner child knows you're putting in the work to heal this wound. I'm proud of you! Sometimes, though, when you feel yourself feeling unworthy, you can tend to be hard on yourself. "I know the cause of this feeling, so why can't I just get rid of it??" But you are doing a GREAT job of being patient with yourself. You're taking initiative in your own healing. You are continually finding new ways to take care of yourself. You are confident that there is always a way to make it through.

Next up on your healing journey is letting others help you, too. I think you are afraid that if you let someone get close that you'll just end up leaving them again OR that if you get to vulnerable you'll see why the person above never reached out to you, and anyone you let in is bound to leave you instead. Your inner child knows exactly what you've been working on and wants you to know that this work has made you strong enough to let someone else in.

Hey pile four. First, I wanted to make note that this is the only pile I felt like I was really talking TO your inner child versus asking the universe for information. While shuffling for the first question, I said "you're can tell me" ; while shuffling for the last question, I said "you're allowed to work on yourself, babe." I think things are feeling tough right now for you and your inner child and I hope this reading helps brings some insights.

First, something you needed as a child was someone to commit to you. You may be a child of divorce who split time between your parents' houses and there were multiple times where one of the parents didn't take you for their assigned times. If your parents/parental figures were together, it seemed like they could commit to everything else, but not you. They could commit to work and they could commit to other relationships, but never showed up for you. All you wanted was the adults in your life to just BE there.

At this point in time, you seem to be indulging in the needs of your ego. In an effort (conscious or not) to not worry about your traumas, you push your sad/angry/disappointed feelings into the shadows. What your doing seems like it should be fun, but are you actually enjoying yourself? Your inner child is telling you that you're holding back in an effort to protect yourself and it's time to think about what you REALLY need to help you feel better.

Pile four, you deserved to be loved the way you needed and I'm sorry that you didn't get that. But, it's not too late to love yourself this way. Be gentle with yourself when you start your new phase of healing. You have the capabilities to see beauty in the drabbest of places and you'll find the beauty in this, too. It isn't going to be easy, but damnit, if little you doesn't deserve this healing <3

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Ace of Cups. Art by Daria Ermolova.